Long deep sighhhhhhh. Relationships are hard and if you don’t nurture them you can find yourself in a position where you are doing things you’ve worked hard to avoid. Let’s be honest, we want to enjoy everything that life has to offer. We only live once! Yet, we also have a responsibility to the relationships we encounter. So this is why I am opening up to you. Hoping you will learn from my mistakes and make better decisions. Here we go….. I have been cheating for the last four months on my relationship with nutrient rich foods and exercise. Yea, I said it… Imma cheater! You know why I cheated??? Because I was in my glow, feeling good, looking good and became lax on my exercise and eating. Here are the 5 consequences I have encountered since living in my truth and understanding that I am a repeat offender of not following through on my healthy lifestyle goals:
1. Unsatisfied “cheat” meals. Have you ever been excited to have your cheat meal and it didn’t live up to your expectations? I have. And I was pissed. Like, I just ate all those damn calories and it wasn’t even good! Damn you! I feel so defeated in that moment and unsatisfied that I cancel that meal out in my head to make it ok to have something more pleasurable. So you see where this is going.... Downhill.
2. It’s a slippery slope. Once you start, it is hard to stop so I recommend avoiding it altogether. Meaning avoid the idea of a “cheat meal” and just do everything in moderation. My cheat meals sometimes turned into cheat weekends that extend into months… And now I'm back at square one for the 193rd time. In order to avoid that, I now have small things here and there to satisfy my cravings instead of ignoring them until my cheat meal. I have found that if I let the craving build up I overdue it and then the next thing I know I'm bloated, feeling bad, and moving slower.
3. Tighter jeans (and not in a good way). When I start to lose weight, my jeans are always the tell-tell sign that my exercising is paying off! When I fall off the bandwagon, the muffin top creeps back into my wardrobe. She just won't let me be great.
4. Lose sight of my goal. When my head is down and I am focused on my goal I can stay the course and get it done. MOVE OUTTA OF MY WAY BECAUSE I'M COMING THROUGH! As soon as a start to peak out of my peripheral with cheat meals I get comfortable. “Oh I ate a burger and it didn’t make me feel heavy. So let’s have one every day for a week!” Small bouts of cheating with bad food choices turn into habits that are hard to break once I need to get back in the game. Don't be Nikki, be better than Nikki.
5. Now I’m mad... Again. Not so much mad but more disappointed. Then the disappointment turns into annoyance. Like, “Whyyyyyyy did I do this to myself again? Geez us!” It is the frustrating cycle that I have lived with for years that I need to break. To do this, I am stopping now before I start to put on my holiday fluff. You know... Those damn pounds that always find you around the holiday season. And you’re like, “Ma’am I wasn’t even looking for you. Why are you here? Go back to where you came from, PUHLEEEZZ.”
I do not want to relive these consequences again. I am sharing this so you can join me in breaking the vicious cheating cycle. I know there are other cheaters out there. Say it loud and say it now, “I am a cheater but no more! I will be faithful to my healthy quest! I want to be slim thick with my cute ass.” Nah. I don't actually wanna be slim thick but you get the point. Don’t let the holidays deter you. They will be here before you know it. Enjoy family favorites but be sure to offset (yells OFFSET in my head in my Migos voice. That's what I heard as a typed this up) it with healthier options during the week. And do NOT, I repeat, DO NOT eat those damn leftovers forever! Please. Don’t do it.